Well, life-always-same routine, [study + eat + sleep - (-work)]. I guessed I’m worn down by this chain-tighted routine, that every time I woke up, I felt so pressurized, so moody. And these are something no one knows I bet…

One thing I can’t get off my mind is, regarding the recent promotion. I’m not given the chance, to take the test for a higher ranking in Uniqlo, F2-1. Perhaps, they did consider that.., I’m still immature and young to take up this role… I admit what Janet said about me, being joyous at work but isn’t that good? Or do they prefer someone to greet in a monotone way? She also says there’s a problem with my greeting style. But to me, as long as you greet – cheerfully, what’s with the matter, am I right?

I believe my contribution to the store, isn’t just what I am now. Yes, they ‘did’ said to promote me, but I feel that I worth more than just a merely ‘F1-3’. I did exclaim that promotion is not important to me, but if I were to be given the role, I will take up the responsibility, and learn at the same time. I know that they sure have considered the mistake I once made to the store, BUT IT’S ALL IN THE PAST RIGHT?* WHY CAN’T THEY SEE MORE ON THE IMPROVEMENT I MADE? I corrected my lateness issue, I helped the store to extend when they needed people. I know they are minor, but I need change for the better, didn’t I?

…Or am I over highly of myself…?

Life may have been much simpler if my brain functions lesser, think lesser so that I won’t question myself ‘why’, for almost everything I did. There are still loads not organized in my mind, dumped aside… I can’t find the time to sort them out, but yeah, I guessed they need some defragment soon if not 19 years of loads will just jumbled still like a single lump of shit.

Perhaps these are just parcel of life, the adaption to peers, to the environment and the most important, to yourself. I’m going to take them on hard and be the better of myself. I took a part from the song, 黄小琥 – 没那么简单.

‘ 感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡’

And I’ve realized, I seek too much of others opinions, it’s time for myself to decide on the priority of matters!

P/S: I’m glad I still have good friends around to ask about my being, thank you guys!

Sometimes, when I'm down, I just need someone to stroke my back and ask, "How's your day?” That's all I really need...